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I have a friend who will be having surgery tomorrow because she has been diagnosed with breast cancer.  Over the months since her diagnosis I have found myself praying for her daily, but at all sorts of odd times.  The prayers come easily into my mind and I find no difficulty with the words I offer to God.  I am also praying for another two friends who have had surgery for different cancers over the past couple of months, and prayers for their ongoing recovery also come easily.

But it was not always so.

Several years ago my family were going through a crisis:  my Father was diagnosed with cancer, so was my brother in law, and my niece … well my niece was born with it.  The whole family was so numb that all we could do was ‘stand still’.  We got angry at God; we got angry at the doctors who gave the diagnoses.  We wanted something done, and done immediately – by the doctors … by God.  We looked for answers and we looked for reasons.  The question that was continually asked of me was ‘well when things were good … was that when God was with you’ therefore, ‘now that things are bad … has He abandoned you?’  This was my ‘behind the closet door’ crisis.

Prayer was difficult, concentration more so.   But it was during this time of numbness, and going through the motions of everyday life, that I found myself singing the words of two songs:

“Father God, I wonder how I managed to exist without the knowledge of your parenthood and your loving care. But now I am your child I am adopted in your family, and I can never be alone ‘cause Father God, you’re there beside me’

And …

“Praise God, from whom all blessings flow;
Praise him, all creatures here below;
Praise him above, your heavenly host;
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.”

I sang those two songs as I drove up and down to Glasgow every weekend for months.   And through them, I was able to recognise once more that God was with me – that he had not abandoned, but was present.  And through this realisation I found comfort and the strength I needed to step forward into the unknown.

The future is unknown to us; but we do not go into it alone.   We can be certain that when we are going through the difficult times of life, God is always with us, we need never doubt his presence, even though we are numb to it at the time.  He keeps is word: “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” (Heb 13:5) and he promises to give us power and strength along the way.


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